absolutley everybody needs to go check out my band's myspace and listen to our song and look at pictures and stuff. =]



click the link.

i play lead guitar by the way.
and the song up is from our second practice.
so levels are a little sketchy.
but its still pretty sweet.

IN THE LAST WEEK ...
I have learned alot of new things.
I have gotten hurt.
I have beaten up three people at a show to save my friend johnny who passed out.
I have had to cut gum out of my hair.
I have found certain people who truly make me happy.
I have begun a few different musical projects.
I have started caring more about school and priorities.
I have learned who my true friends are.
I have made the decision that i do not like the effects drugs have on people.
I have been throughly dissapointed.
I have hardly had any money.
I have eaten alot of junk food.
I have loved.

so i've decided that im very tired of living in a world where almost everybody thinks that they are better, more original, tougher, smarter, or cooler than everybody else in the world.

the sad thing is that the people who usually act that way are far from the opposite. but i know im no one to judge. im not better than anyone. but i know who i am.

i dont need to beat people up to prove that im somebody. i know that i could defend myself if i had to, but kicking ass for no reason doesn't make you cool, it makes you imature.

i dont need to try and do things to make myself original, because the most original thing you can do is be yourself. i can honestly say, however, that lately i truly believe that i don't need to buy into anything horribly cliche to try and make myself cool.

i dont need to try to act like i've got thousands of friends, and know so so so many people, because at least I can say that the people i do know, and are friends with, are like family. and we have each others back. and thats something real.




its somewhat frustrating. not gonna lie.

i've been getting that esophagus feeling that you get when somebody totally changes the way you look at life alot lately. or maybe thats just love?

this new bullshit ammendment trying to "fix" the civil unions of gay\lesbain couples has got to be the most rediculous fucking thing i have ever heard.

ive come to the conclusion that its not even about being gay anymore.
its just rediculous.
and i would really like to sit down with somebody who has the opposite view of me and ask them how they can honestly support this new amendment.

because from what i understand.
its going to affect alot more then just gay\lesbian couples.

read the new shepard express if you get the chance.
endofstory.


i wish i could vote dammit.

its funny how things work out. things have actually worked out lately. and im quite satisfied.

i have been super busy though. we had our first concert this week on wednesday (choir) and that went really well. liz and my audition for the pops concert went really well. and im in an all new girls acapella group at school now.

not to mention i spent the last three nights working a haunted house with jamie and erica...which turned out to be one of the greatest things i could have signed up for.

i get in this mood alot lately where i feel like i just wanna get in a car and drive forever and ever because i can't handle anything going on anymore...but then something always happens and makes me pull through okay. so...everything is alright.


i like fall. it makes me very very reflective. and i sorta like that.

im excited to see what the next week will bring....
we only have 3 days of school.
and we h ave major city plans thursday so that'll be super super fun.


if anyone wants to meet up, actually, they should get a hole of me...because id love to see all my city friends this week. <3333

im ready for winter everybody.

=]



for those of you who actually read my livejournal and care though. things lateley have been working out nicely. my friends me the world to me and always will.


ive gotten involved in so many things at school that im actually enjoying. which is sorta making the daytime (which i still despise) seem worthwhile.

liz and i audition for the concert at our school on tuesday. so thats exciting. ill let you know if we get accepted or whatver.

ive got lots of plans for this weekend. so ill post updates on how tings go.

i have never needed to talk to someone and tell them everything so bad.
and i have never been as UNABLE to do so at the same time.

i dont want responses saying that i can talk to you about anything because i know who i talk to on livejournal. and i know none of you can help.


i need someone who is stronger than me.
i need someone who isn't closed minded.
i need someone to help.



endofstory.

i found this one in my old photobucket....andddd....how can you argue thats not adorable?